4-28-10

hello darling,

so i missed the blog for yesterday but i definitely have something to write for today. So like i mentioned so many times, i got the acceptance for Smart Set; i dont start until two weeks from today. I have to make sure to try to work it out with blockbuster because i want to work for both of them.

And i dont know today the house was super hectic, it was driving me insane.
people yellin at each other. it wasnt normal for people to keep doin that everyday. it just pisses me off.

oh well, one of them is planning to move somewhere else, so itll only be two people in the house again. mind you it will b scary again, but i guess thats what you get whn you live in an old house.

It was very challenging to talkk to you on the phone today, because either you called to early, or someone was using the phone. its ok now its sorta better.

i dont want you to talk to me until you finish your studies.

so i realize i have a list of things i still have to do this summer
so i decided to give you the list in case i forget.
1. check OSAP
2. financial Aid at George Brown
3. get rollerblades
4. body size mirror
4. bulletin board for my room
5. Get my books for school
6. call the consultant of the course, about wat books are necessary to read b4 school starts
7. SEE MY BABY
8. Passport
9. BOOK OFF IMPORTANT DAYS WITH MY BABY
10. do Yoga to keep fit
11. Fix my bike tires (just the front specifically)

.. yea and thats all i have in my list for now,
the other stuff ill probably will only need later during school n stuff.

oooh
2a) CHECK WITH MY SCHOLARSHIP AT THE FINANCIAL AID AT ST.JAMES.

well thats my day.
ps.and im anticipating for this upcoming saturday ;)

missing you always, -->charity sendico mcleod

my thoughts

call him soft

quiet

sad

distant

shy or even angry

to him what you think means nothing to him. BUT don't be surprised if you see him laughing at you for noticing that you were that person who fell on your face first going up the stairs. He whispers to me, the words he loves to say, he says with meaning.

i love you

gentle heart

sometimes im scared of hurting you feelings, you mean so much to me.

those eyes, the eyes that see through me, and understands.

your breathing soothes me, i miss your presence of being here beside me.

i know its hard for you to know all the things i did before,

your trying to accept, trust, and grow as a person.

always n forever.

its not that youll never understand

it takes time and days, ill be patient and attentive.

faith

it concerns me that you never stop to think about yourself, your always thinking about me.

im not far, even if im a mile of three away.

where do you keep me when im not here beside you.

its a complicated situation, but im here ready to listen, just talk to me,

im not judging

see these hands, the hands you hold on to

reminding me that nobody else can bring happiness to my heart

words are very limited, its inside thats all i know, its unexplainable.

can you feel it?

its just one of those things you cant describe

we'll grow up and see what the world will hold for us.

hold my hand and ill help you

no matter what it is, through the present and future.

they say we're too young to feel this way.

you tell me all the things you feel about us, the future, and now

the times we spent together, the days we linger to, the conversations we had.

i can always depend on you

pink bag

pills

thank you

i love you

coincedence

its been a while.
i saw you walking to the stop, how it brought your face glow into my eyes.
how long has it been?
i remember..

walking the path we took together, by the lake, the park
even just sitting in front of my yard.

we talked about the world.
from the ppl at school, the days we plan on doin in a while,
to the future and beyond

how come we never called?

oh remember that night we walked home drunk?
oh that tunnel, i thought we would have never made it out.
it was dark, (good thing in the summer)
you made me wear that silly outfit.
haha and that little ditch you fell in.
good times.
*sigh*
through and through, i remember what you were trying to make me think of
the time we went to kyle's house and we threw that soccer ball at his window. lmao

I miss you.
are they still together? what happened to them?
i saw that guy who tried hooking up with you last week. lol

well...
umm....
yea

i have to go now...
i miss you. always..
call me sometime.

*sigh*

repeat repeat repeat

Put things in the past.
It’s a burden, the thoughts, and the acts.
Why must you always look back?
Stop.
I need you to stop.

Do hear it, my head, my heart, and its driving..
Throb, throb, and throbing.
My head is starting to hurt.
The words you use, repeating, over and over and over and over again.\

*sigh*

I can’t stand it, I feel the pain.
Yes yes yes I know!

I know you want it this way, you want it that way
You want me to do as I am told. And I’m doing it, I want to please you but I don’t know what else I can do. I’m only human.

I love you. I do. Deeply.
But when can we meet, in the middle maybe?
The end? Why didn’t we do it in the beginning.

*sigh*

Are you listening?

Letter me a mile

It takes a few words. The thought you put in it.
I crave for it. Please be honest, that’s all I want.
List it all, from the beginning, middle core and the clinging end.

My favorite flavors are the things you did yesterday.
The people you met. The things you did.
Do tell me. I want to hear it, all ears are open.

Your family, how about school.
My favorite memory the time you were with me, right here, beside me.
The things we shared, giggling for hours over what she did.
Oh man, how that happened.

Oh I have some scoop, this guy past me by. Wish you were here to see my expressions.
Can you imagine? My face, the wrinkles that formed the chatting teeth when he was near.

Sigh. Your voice is my concealment, you’re so beautiful.
How young we were.

Tell me how is mother, father and brother. Yuk. Laughing!
The time, days, weeks and months, I long to hear from you.
Your in my heart all the time, yet..

We stay close yet the words, thoughts you put is everything.

Please, sister, letter me a mile.

first time...

okay only started today.
thanks jabe, jestine... geez now i dont know wat to say.
but ill try.


my head aches, throbs with the hit.
thump, thump,thump..
i think..i think.. its working
he hits me, i see.
have to , to have to

look away. its not easy..


then it rushes in.


continue...

ill see wat this feeling will do..
ill sit, wait, and wish..

*sigh*